thanks guys.
Well, Josh graduated from ECU this weekend and I'm so proud of him I can't stand it. We spent all sunday moving josh and joe's stuff out of their house. I had been doing better but now I'm back in the dumps about it... I keep replaying the accident in my head and it tears me up every time.
I am gonna go see him (cemetery) tomorrow on the way home so that will help. This has completely changed my priorities in life and even the way I deal with stuff in general. I used to really stress out at work when things weren't done efficiently.. now I could not care less as long as I'm treated fairly and I make the money I need to be "comfortable"
I have been listening to music a lot b/c it helps. I have been on system of a down's "lonely day" b/c it is exactly how I feel.
I miss Joe... everybody says it gets easier with time but it seems to be getting harder the longer we go without him.
On a good note there have been some "strange" occurences since his passing that make us know he is watching us. Joe told Josh a few weeks ago that he had "something Josh would like" on the way. Yesterday Josh opened a Tshirt from Malibu boats (the ski boat they were restoring together) and it had a Bible verse on it that read:
"When you are on the water, I will be with you" Isaiah 43:2
He also is messing with shannon by moving pillows on the couch to annoy her (sounds crazy but it's true, I swear)
We are restoring the boat for Josh for his graduation gift and having Malibu boats design the paint scheme in ECU colors. Joe named the boat E-SKI-U just a week before he had his accident so that's done.
Thanks for the prayers guys.