- Joined
- Mar 19, 2005
- Location
- Raleigh
He hasn't been active here in some time but many of you know Lee Crawford @transman731 and his wife, Connie. Connie passed in her sleep night before last, I believe. If you are on FB, you may have seen her daughter Beverly's post yesterday morning or Lee's post, quoted below.
As most of who will read this, know , i am not a "feelings", kind of person. Especially on facebook. Today my world has changed forever. For 28 years she has been my glue, she has been my strength. i may have always been the one to say "we'll figure it out", or "we'll get through this", but it was always because she believed in me and with her belief, i felt i could overcome anything. My strength is gone As i type each response to all the texts and messages i have gotten, i realize just how lost I am. i know these things take time, but i now have something i have never had before, fear. I'm afraid, i don't know if those 2 words have come out of my mouth before. (they still haven't because i said to myself) i'm afraid i won't be strong for our daughter, our grandchildren and the many people who's lives she touched. i fear waking up without her, and going to sleep, knowing she is no longer here with me. I'm afraid of the void that will now be left in the girls lives, that i will never be able to fill. Connie has gone to be with her Mamma. I imagine she has not let go of the hug since she has arrived. I love you Connie Crawford, i pray you will somehow find a way to give me strength again, as i feel this world is empty without you. oh, i almost forgot, i also fear dehydration, this shit keeps leaking from my eyes, i drink a bottle of water..........it comes out of my eyes. for the family members who are wondering, yes i took my damn medication.
Our prayers are with Lee, her daughter Beverly, her granddaughters, and the rest of the family.
As most of who will read this, know , i am not a "feelings", kind of person. Especially on facebook. Today my world has changed forever. For 28 years she has been my glue, she has been my strength. i may have always been the one to say "we'll figure it out", or "we'll get through this", but it was always because she believed in me and with her belief, i felt i could overcome anything. My strength is gone As i type each response to all the texts and messages i have gotten, i realize just how lost I am. i know these things take time, but i now have something i have never had before, fear. I'm afraid, i don't know if those 2 words have come out of my mouth before. (they still haven't because i said to myself) i'm afraid i won't be strong for our daughter, our grandchildren and the many people who's lives she touched. i fear waking up without her, and going to sleep, knowing she is no longer here with me. I'm afraid of the void that will now be left in the girls lives, that i will never be able to fill. Connie has gone to be with her Mamma. I imagine she has not let go of the hug since she has arrived. I love you Connie Crawford, i pray you will somehow find a way to give me strength again, as i feel this world is empty without you. oh, i almost forgot, i also fear dehydration, this shit keeps leaking from my eyes, i drink a bottle of water..........it comes out of my eyes. for the family members who are wondering, yes i took my damn medication.
Our prayers are with Lee, her daughter Beverly, her granddaughters, and the rest of the family.
