UTfball68
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- Joined
- Jul 18, 2008
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- Granite Quarry
So here’s my question, and i pre-apologize for the long read. For all you folks doing better, when it comes to eating, regarding my earlier comments about snowballing sabotage. On the whole, will power and self-control isn’t the issue when I’m in the right mindset. I can typically lose weight quickly, and I can stick to it for a while. Driving by the fast food places is easy, just cooking is easy, portion control isn’t that big of a deal, wife stays home now making things easier overall when it comes to food and eliminates the convenience/too busy excuse. We/I did well all week, saw a few pounds come off and physically started feeling better and clearer mentally. However, last night is a perfect example to trigger my snowball, and I have no idea how to mentally get past this hurdle. The wife and I go out to a local swanky steakhouse...both kids at the grandparents for the first time since we had the second. I automatically go into balling out mode, justified by: because I f*cking deserve it, work hard, play hard...right? Well before our food even gets to the table we (primarily me) rack up a $150 bar tab...all empty calories. I scarf down a half dozen rolls (with dressing good enough to make dog turds edible), beer cheese soup, a 14oz filet, a twice baked potato with all the fixins and dessert. Tell the wife to box hers up so it’s not wasted. Eat the wife’s for breakfast...well now today’s shot, so go to the diner we always go to after church, meh, might as well get a double chili cheeseburger. And here I sit, self-loathing, regretting doing any of it, but it’s done now. Now historically, I don’t self correct and go until my even fatter fat clothes get tight. I feel I can get back on track tomorrow. But what I don’t know how to stop is that self-justifying trigger, ‘well it’s a holiday’, ‘well it’s a birthday’, ‘well it’s date night’, ‘well we’re celebrating’...etc etc. It’s never an if, but when it’ll happen...sometimes it’s a week, sometimes it’s a year before I sabotage myself...some times I self-correct after a couple days, some times several months. How do you control that???